Learning to say "baby"!

I've talked about the "honest transparency" that I would need to have...but yet waited to make it public. As if keeping it inside myself will make it "not true". My daughter is pregnant. It's been hard to say the words...and yet, I'm learning to be excited about the gift that this little baby boy is from God. The timing is all wrong...this was supposed to happen AFTER the "fairytale princess wedding"...not before. I am so grateful that God is forgiving, and that He can (and will) take what the enemy meant for evil, and use it for good. I am grateful that my daughter is still a princess, because we have a forgiving Father in Heaven. She has a hard road ahead of her...but God will be right next to her all along the way. I pray that God blesses her, her son, and the baby's father. I pray that they will become a family that chooses to seek Him, chooses to love Him, and chooses to follow Him and obey.

Broken

My heart aches. My spirit within me cries out to God for mercy. I've come to know and love the vast forgiveness and mercy He offers to those who cry out to Him. I cry out now. My spirit aches within me, I cry out and seek Him so. My God, you are so forgiving, and loving. All we need to do it turn our faces to you and seek you, and you are there, ready to love and forgive. Oh, if only man was even just a little bit as forgiving as you, my God!

I'm becoming very aware how important honest tranparency is. If I spend my life looking like I've got it together to the world, and to other Christians, what purpose have my trials served? Perhaps I've learned a bit more...but how is God glorified? I'm thinking that a trial that is emerging on the horizon will need to be a public journey. I've taken a stand on certian issues, and now I'm going to have to wear the issue myself. I pray that God will give me the courage, and the voice to say what will need to be said. I can't reveal this journey now...it isn't time. But very soon. Very soon.

Life is way too short. You never really know for sure that you have tomorrow. So much time is wasted on petty little issues between friends and family members. There are so many people that wish they could have some time back. And if they had that time back, they would have tossed aside the "issues" that caused the sadness, and pain. How unimportant some things really are! And time passes...

Starting

Writing a blog. Never thought I'd do it. Still not sure I will. Is there a need to put myself out there? Not really sure the world is ready to read all that goes on in my mind, and in my little piece of the world. Nope...just not sure.